Before the reading began, a black spider drew me in. I saw other insects: dragonflies, butterflies, shiny beetles. This black spider stands watch, observing.
I feel heavy, deep breathing signifying a “heavy heart”.
An old woman in a dust cluttered attic mutters to herself. Musty old things surround her. Dust particles are visible, hanging in the air, as the sunlight slants through a window. In the cramped space, the old woman is searching for something. She wants to show me on old photo album, a story of unrequited love. A young man, so sure of himself, full of self-confidence appears in these photos. Handsome. Fun. Good-natured. Always a laugh. As the old woman looks at these photos, tears run down her face. She thinks about what she does not have, what could have been and a bitterness settles itself around her. A life lived longing for someone, the rejection stings her heart. This rejection and bitterness she has lived with her whole life. There is sadness. No vent. She has sealed her heart. The spiders in the attic stand guard here.
Energy from the Great Galactic Source. A single “ping” is heard, as if a single note was played on a harp. Our energy instantly “synchronizes” the moment we hear this. This is an “attunement”. The energy is soft, gentle, loving, supporting. As our hearts pour out our sorrows, we are instantly healed. Love, gratification and joy fill our most inner being. We KNOW we are ONE with God.
My heavy heart is lighter now. This sorrow from the past, that has so heavily weighed down, has now been removed. This longing for someone has finally been severed. I need not dwell on him.
I ask your guides to assemble themselves. Mother Mary quickly comes to your side, comforting you. Angels surround you pouring out love.
I hear this lyric:
“When I find myself in times of trouble, Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be” The Beatles, Let It Be
“You are loved!”
This sorrow, so penetrating and so deep, makes it difficult for me to see others around you. As if a thick fog surrounds you.
The connection distorts again. I feel a deep sludge, moroseness, depression. It is difficult to move out of this condition. I send “pin-pricks” of light in order to move out of this gloom and morass. It is so over-consuming.
I ask to see a time-line.
This is the Great War. A quick flicker of images appear and disappear. It lasts only a second in time. I know now that you intended to marry someone, but the Great War has destroyed it all. Everything. You feel cheated, disillusioned, unhappy. Your wrath is endless and you take this out on the world around you. It consumes you. You cannot look past this event and move on. You cannot forgive. You are unable to move forward in your life. These emotions consume you so entirely it wrenches your heart.
In your current time, I see you jump between bouts of depression and good times. You need to find balance in your life and love yourself. Your heart is so big but you are afraid to open it entirely for someone. You do not want what has happened in your “past” to repeat itself. You carefully guard your heart.
Seraphinity 