A limitless expanse of darkness stretches out before me. Gradual tones of blue crease onto the tight edge of blackness as stars tumble forth, their exquisite light ignited in brilliant gold. The painted sky of an illuminated church manuscript. Stars glitter and beckon in the night sky. Colours seep onto the page in rich blues and golden yellows. Although the stars depicted are decorative and two dimensional, this is where you long to go, to transcend the earthly realm and move beyond that which is human. Your convictions run deep knowing the day will come for you to return whence you came. The sky. The stars.
White woollen gowns clothe women lying prostate on the ground. Each woman is blessed with Holy Water and given the sign of the cross. Their hair has been shorn revealing uneven ends cut closely around the head. This is an abbey around the 12th century, France.
Stories from the Bible are being read aloud and those living within the household gather around a warm hearth in the evening, imagining the lives of Disciples and Saints. Each trying to find similarities between their own current lives and those they admire and beatify. A constant challenge for each individual, a want to put into place teachings from the Bible.
Dull grey skies press down upon an autumn day. A child, a very young girl, stands next to her father. With a large dowry in hand, he accompanies you to the gates of the abbey. The novice within admits you alone. It’s a difficult parting, for on the one hand there is rapt expectation, but on the other, incredible sadness in leaving the ones you hold so close and dear. A life of domesticity no longer stands before you.
Your outstretched body lines the ground. The other women lie beside you in their coarse woolen gowns. Cold flagstones are felt beneath you. A discernible trembling is felt, knowing that your life will be given over in service to Christ. Feelings of pride and elation rise, there is a fervent desire to share your accomplishments with your family, so that they too can acknowledge your sacrifice and duty as you pledge fealty to those above you. A deep joy gathers within you. For your future will be one in commune with God.
A tapered candle is lit. An intrusion is felt. A deep spiritual presence moves and shifts any outside interference to the side. Urgent discussions are held between two women. A sense of urgency pervades the scene. A situation has arisen that must be delicately handled. The Abbess is present. Your position in the abbey has given you freedom of movement, thought, and learning that you would not have been permitted at home. You work, as a group of women, exerting control in the local community in a manner that is assertive, bringing wealth and power over local authorities.
As golden stars fall from the sky of the manuscript, I view a curving shaft of energy as it moves through your chakras. Entering your right foot, the ribbon of light is blocked. Emotions felt are high. An issue is felt, emotional or spiritual, regarding your own sense of self or your relationship to Spirit. The balance you sustain in life, whether through your own personal belief system or the support of people around you is in question at this time. Focus on yourself at this time. Grounded energy, appearing as gravelly black and white granite, comes off your feet in multiple showers. Moving upward from your base chakra to your sacral chakra, permeability is here. A gradual easing is felt, severing ties within your memories, relationships and interactions with others from the past. Moving beyond your seat of stored memories, know that they do not bind or trap you in anyway. Your solar plexus moves clockwise, radiant and glowing. Life, as a natural process of spiritual evolution, requires a need to forgive others as well as yourself with the realization that making mistakes is part of the process. To restore peace and harmony when emotions are exhibited, energy should be defused and not escalated. Your heart chakra, spinning and diffusing a brilliant light, is sensitive to tension and stress. Around your throat chakra, tightness within the spin is felt, accessing self-repression and communication. Your 3rd eye chakra spins sparkling, your own intuitive abilities and inner perception are developing. Your crown chakra glows brightly as expanded consciousness and self-realisation grows. Loving-kindness for all sets in.
I ask for your guides and angels to present themselves. The warm, loving blue light of Mother Mary enfolds you. She is with you to give encouragement and enable you to establish yourself in society. Her comfort and understanding is expansive. The turquoise light of Archangel Haniel is seen around you, helping you to focus on self-expression through higher feelings and emotions as well as developing your unique individuality. Haniel is the Archangel of divine communication and assists to fulfill your soul’s mission by guiding you through visions, perceptions, personal revelations and angelic coincidences. Turquoise invokes the infinite blue emptiness radiating in all directions. Through this blue sky stretching out to infinity, you can gain an understanding of the expansiveness and true soul freedom if we allow our horizons not to become narrow and limited.
Viewing a timeline back into the past, I see firmly established foundations that allow you to be open to receive, but as with all partnerships, an even exchange of energy is needed in order to maintain harmony and balance. Success may have come in the most unlikely of places. At the present time, emotional satisfaction and happiness are felt with an accomplishment of goals. Hold on to these beneficial feelings when you need inspiration and positive energy. This is the right time to heal past memories that have been holding you hostage and forgive others and yourself. This will give you a clear and unobstructed path. The future may show weariness, but you do have the inner strength to complete what you’ve been working on. You can achieve what you’ve been working toward with resolve and inner reserve. The knowledge and experience you will gain will be an invaluable resource for you.
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