Loud words are heard; a vivid argument has broken out. A young man, whose future has been precisely mapped out, argues with his mother. His will against hers, a struggle that he will eventually lose. Societal precepts, fervent religious dogma and expectations of one’s class dictate and form life around you, allowing for little deviation. All follow strict guidelines and rules laid out before them by state and church authorities. 15th century, Toledo, Spain.
You work with your merchant father learning trade and commerce. Business dealings bring you into contact with other parts of the city, other people and other religions. The sight of a young Jewish woman captivates your eyes and you know in your heart that she is your destiny. Anticipating objection, the vehement, vociferous disapproval for the unsuitable and inappropriate match was not completely unexpected. A clash ensues between a stern Catholic upbringing and deep Jewish heritage. You are willing to move beyond the constricting viewpoint of the church in order to be with this woman. Numerous arguments and protests arise from your mother. It would be an unacceptable match in her eyes, unforgivable to step beyond the strict boundaries held in place by society and church.
Heightened religious convictions stir the hearts of many. Hostile feelings and prejudices prevail here creating contempt and hatred among all. Yet you impart in a fleeting glance, a subdued emotion of fawning adoration for a woman placed beyond your grasp. This initial emotion, having no recourse for release, gradually develops into the same festering anger that is felt around you. An intense amount of torment and despair is suppressed within you. You can do nothing but observe as events and people conspire against you and your happiness.
Events move swiftly, causing pain and emotional turmoil for those involved. You watch as she, along with her family and many others, are expelled and forced to quickly flee to other lands. You, however, remain steadfast in your convictions causing a further rift to develop within your own family. You focus on yourself, refusing to relent to maternal pressure.
You allow light to flood into you as I view your chakras. Your crown chakra opens into a vast depth of space, points of sparkling light shine here. You are connected to Source. I feel a heavy swinging motion at your third eye chakra; infectious laughter erupts as things reveal themselves not to be what they seem. A gurgling noise at your throat chakra, a bubbling up of mixed suppressed thoughts and emotions. It feels as if a fire has been lit at your solar plexus, an immense, volatile energy is present, a feeling of being, of change in the world. As your sacral chakra spins, smooth undulating energy appears. At your base chakra you are stable and grounded with Earth energy.
I ask your guides to please present themselves for me. You appear first, your hair wild and long, this is your own way of expressing rebuke and censure for those controlling your outer world. The yellow energy of Master Lord Lanto shines around you. He offers assistance to all who feel drawn to greater learning and to the awakening youth of Earth, his knowledge and wisdom is freely shared and pervades various educational systems. The brilliant light of Archangel Jophiel of the Yellow Ray permeates the scene, bringing happiness and joy into life. The Archangel of Wisdom, Jophiel can help recover soul fragments that may have been detached through illness or depression. His wisdom assists in having clear mental perception and inspiration.
I ask to see a timeline. A young man, clean-shaven, wearing a dark coat and long hose, learns the trade of his father, a merchant craftsman. His mother, a woman predisposed to arranging her son’s future, asserts her own will upon him. Having relinquished his heart to a Jewish woman, he has made an intolerable match, both socially and religiously. Discontent fuels arguments with your mother as you contemptuously dismiss her words. The unyielding bonds of society, culture and religion cannot, at this time, be broken. Just as a bird sits nursing a broken wing, you tend to your emotional pain. All hopes and ambitions for the future have been crushed; you cannot take flight and escape that which binds you even tighter. The heavy arm of the church and society foster an atmosphere of extreme enmity. Your stance and counteraction to societal views cause inordinate grief within your family. At the present time I see you viewing, amassing information through an indirect means. This knowledge allows you to see unique perspectives through an undefined lens. In the future, I see a solid white room, symmetric with few details. All is arranged accordingly as light pours within.
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