Monthly Archives: February 2014

“What’s Goin’ On”

I watch a streak of light fall in the night sky.  The light has a fizzle effect, much like a plummeting firework.  It disappears into nothingness.

I hear the lyrics from “What’s Up?” by 4 Non Blondes:

And so I cry sometimes when I’m lying in bed
Just to get it all out, what’s in my head
And I, I am feeling a little peculiar
And so I wake in the morning and I step outside
And I take deep breath and I get real high
And I scream from the top of my lungs,
WHAT’S GOIN’ ON!!

A girl with long hair sits upon a field and gazes into the distance.  I see worn, brown, flat shoes, and a skirt covered by an apron.  Her hair is pulled tightly together with a band, leaving the length of it to fall upon her back.  Dazing and dreaming, there is a quality of wistfulness which sits within her.  One can see trees in the distance from this field.  She takes a moment of rest to pause and reflect upon that which surrounds her.

A course of action has been set into motion, an unwavering course that’s been put before her.  Shall she walk the length or veer away from it?  Taking another route would be akin to taking a chance, this does interest her, but does not run in her blood.  She is more content to stay the course.

An idyllic country house.  You will be wed soon.  Your path has been mapped out for you.  A dowry to be packed and moved to the new farmhouse.  Your most precious possessions carefully wrapped and packed, these you will bring with you.  Mixed feelings of excitement and dread surround you.  Starting a new life with a family creates a sense of doubt with minor feelings of unworthiness and failure.  You have little idea of what awaits you, what’s expected of you, and nervousness slowly edges in.  Although you know your future husband and his family, you cannot imagine what it will be like to live with him.

I view your chakras.  Your crown chakra is open, expansive and wide.  A stellar quietness is felt here.  I view pinpricks of light standing out.  At your 3rd eye, I see movement and feel a wariness as to what you perceive.  Incoming information is not completely read.  Your throat chakra is very tight, I feel gasping and feel a need to expand.  A need to recharge and reevaluate your present situation.  Moving to your heart chakra, I see a small heart weeping in the background.  I feel a part of yourself is closed off here.  A closing off so that you are not hurt, that you remain untouched by pain that confronts you.  A very loving light is felt, a love for those around you shining forth.  Your solar plexus is light, spinning.  You would like to experience all that life has to offer, an intrepid nature yet fearful of moving out of your comfort zone.  At your sacral chakra, I feel slight immobility, though a desire to move forward creatively.  There is emotional balance.  At your base chakra, I feel a slipping motion, gradual slow movement forward.

I ask for your guides to please assemble themselves for me.  You appear again sitting in the field.  Your legs are no longer reclined to the side, but are bent beneath you.  Attached to the land, you delight in the birds, the flowers, and the scents that accompany the countryside.  Quiet solitude is reflected in you.  Archangel Raphael’s  beautiful healing light glows about you, he guides you at the present time with healing work.  I see the soft glow of Mother Mary, her comforting and loving presence is with you.  Her energies of intuitive wisdom are bestowed upon you.  Angels and elementals enter into the space that you have created here.

I ask to see a timeline.  An older woman with graying hair appears.  Her hair is long.  I suddenly see her as the young woman I saw earlier, long hair falling down her back.  Her keen eyes are intent on showing me the beginning of her story.  A small village, a farming village, France, 19th century.  She has promised herself to a young man.  Although she knows the young man, she doesn’t really know him.  Unaware of what lurks beneath his surface, she unknowingly walks into emotional peril.  The man’s outside behaviour in no way reflects the myriad problems he is harboring within.  She unwittingly becomes his target.  Through trauma, tension, and frustration, her eyes slowly open to his true character.  She cannot step out of her marriage.  She must continue the charade, allowing all to see only domestic bliss and normality.  Much of her energy, expended on continuing the ruse, takes an emotional toll.  Her intention is to maintain balance, but in so doing she suffers internally and creates coping mechanisms to endure.

At the present time, I see a scale being tipped violently in one direction and quite suddenly.  Though, beforehand, feelings of indecisiveness had been present, the scale, having shifted will move your course forward and onward.

In the future I stare incredulously as you explain to me that it’s a machine.  Clueless as to it’s operation, all is not what it appears.  You effortlessly move and arrange things before me.

End of Reading

A Gift From the Gods

A very young woman with dark hair appears, she is wearing a long dress.  I hear the words Persia and Egypt.  The young woman’s family is originally from Persia.

Ringlets are in your hair and it’s put up, atop your head, imitating the style of the time.  You must work.  I see you rapidly talking with other family members in a small room discussing the daily goings on, the gossip.  Your sister.  A room made of walls of earth, brown, red earth.  A cooking fire is here on the ground.

I hear a flute being played.  This is an instrument you have learned from your mother, taught when you were a young girl, learning very quickly.  A gift from the gods according to your mother.  It is your saving grace in this world.  You are able to live and survive with your musical knowledge.

There is a group of you, performing at rituals, solemn occasions, but you are not interested in this, in playing music, instead you are focused on other young girls around you, comparing yourself to them.  Cursory looks, apprising their beauty and grace with yours, comparisons that never end.  This is viewed as foolishness by your mother, unproductive and not serious.  You appear unwilling to focus on your task at hand.

Blithely unaware of the importance of the music, you focus instead on mundane issues.  You are a young girl and give no weight or assign no importance to issues beyond what you currently feel and see.  You enjoy only the present moment without thinking of your future.  I watch as you follow a maze of dark passageways with others behind you.

As you leave, I view your chakras.  Your crown chakra opens up to reveal a huge expanse dotted with twinkling lights.  Your 3rd eye is open, but moves slowly and sluggishly.  I feel incoherence, confusion and slight disassociation here.  At your throat chakra, there is an abrupt tightness at times and then a quick release.  I am told, “All is well.”  You are expanding into your true light, your true self, although a prickle of fear is felt,  perhaps a fear of rejection by those around you.  Self-expression is slightly blocked.  At your heart chakra, a soft, warm glow is emitted which becomes stronger and steadier with time.  Compassion and love for others is felt here.  At your solar plexus, a light shines forth with intermittent swaying as if confidence and ambition wane.  At your sacral chakra, I feel and see a strong light signalling emotional stability.  You hover at your base chakra.

I ask for your guides to please assemble themselves for me.  You quietly appear, coy and turned to the side.  The musical instrument you played earlier is settled on your lap.  You do not want the instrument or the playing thereof to be the main focus or of importance here.  Your abilities to draw others to you are qualities which you wish to emphasize now.  Winning others over.   You smile with the self realisation and confidence in knowing what you possess.  Angels come around and Mother Mary appears near you.  Her comfort and understanding presence is with you at this time.  The Ascended Master St. Germaine is also with you, he oversees the growth of consciousness bringing a return to harmony and melodious sounds, opposed to the present sound which expresses humanity’s lack of harmony and peace.  His unconditional Love surrounds you.  Archangel Raphael’s presence is felt, helping to find inner guidance, love and balance to heal ourselves and others.

I ask to see a timeline.   There is a small group of you giving a concert.  Your hair is arranged carefully, oiled, with ringlets falling about your face.  You and your group are acknowledged for beautiful music that is produced together.  Your gift, your music, lifts those around you but you do not see this as a gift, rather as a hindrance to your own emotional needs and wants.  This is not something you chose.  You dismiss lightly and push away that which helps others.  At the present time, I see a woman, wide-eyed looking to either side of her.  Unsure of where to step next, tentative about moving in any direction.  You would like to see ahead with a knowing you are moving in the right direction, “Please rest assured that you are at no moment alone, and no matter the path you have chosen, nothing is wrong.  You are given guidance every step of the way!  You are loved and cherished!  We love you.”  In the future, I see a glimpse of a strangely bright light that you are shielding with your hands from your eyes.  A light that is intense and draws one to it.  You cannot separate and take leave from it.  Others are here as well, viewing.

End of Reading